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memorial May 22, 2009

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i’m going to be painfully honest here. so big huge elephantic disclaimer: there’s no way i’m going to get around offending any one who may be reading this, so i’m not even going to attempt to not offend any one. (maybe i just offended someone with the use of “elephantic.” it’s elephantine, but i never really liked that word.)

weekends like this really make me miss my friends. not that i don’t have friends here as i do. i’ve made some really nice friends and it’s all good. but i mean the kind of group of friends that i know are going to be hanging out tonight at any of our old patios and live music haunts about Denver. i know i could walk into andrews or sutra, benders or the snug, jacksons or lodos or the rover, and i’ll find a friendly face with a pint or two.

there were nights in D-town when we couldn’t seem to get away from the “friendly face” and the girls would pow-wow in the corner to plan our terms of engagement. and sometimes the BP would have to roll out (that’s b*tch patrol  to the uninformed) and set the record straight to the public. on the good nights, we’d all walk away unscathed. on the not as good nights, we’d all end up in the harsh lighting of denver diner or the more forgiving pete’s kitchen. on a really good night, well, we’d have a really good night.

it will be 2 years in july since i’ve moved away from the Big D. and it’s been a good thing most of the time, and i dont regret it. i do feel “home” here and it’s been great for my relationships with my parents and brother and with my church.  it’s been a growing and stretching experience for me, getting back to what’s important and remembering all i was created for and the Love i am meant to know.

but it’s on weekends like this that i realize i can’t walk down Colfax to the place where everyone knows my name. and it makes me ever so slightly sad. not to mention really sober.

 

home is where the stuff is February 4, 2009

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So the last of my stuff from the Denver storage unit is now here with me in beautiful Williamsburg, VA.  It made me very happy to see my stuff, and then extremely sad that I have so much crap and had this inkling to burn it all. Burn burn yes ya gonna burn.

But no, I tucked everything as neatly as possible in my brother’s garage and my father’s garage and nooks and crannies of my current room. There are things I wish I never had (I own two pairs of angels wings… don’t ask) and some things I can’t believe I lived so long without (my entire collection of Sandman comics). The overall end result being that I feel fairly blase about the entire act of possession of goods and wish I could donate everything to a needy orphanage and run off to the Great Wall of China with nothing but a change of clothes and a good apple. Ok, maybe a dozen apples.

Denver seems so far away to me now. Having my stuff out of there feels like a closed, locked door with no key.  And I’m not sure anyone inside will let me back in. Sniff sniff.

ok Focus! I think a lot of my life has been halfhearted. I lived in a few different places and never really felt like I was “home” or where I really wanted to be. Typical grass is greener kinda girl. But at the end of the day, I’m the kind of person who really wants to sink my teeth in to whatever I’m doing wherever I am and having bits and pieces of me strewn about the country is just not helpful to my commitment level.

So here I am, regrouped and ready to rumble. Although on further ponderance, I realize I still have a few pieces with various friends and ex-boyfriends all over the country.  Hey, statute of limitations definitely expired on pretty much all of that. Consider it yours. Or your dog’s chew toy. Whateva. Onward and upward, yo!

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you are excused August 19, 2008

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i received a jury summons… for Denver.  in the notice there was a contact name and email address, so i quick zipped off an email stating that I am a resident of James City County VA and that i am disqualified.  within a few minutes, i received a reply that simply stated “You are excused.” and that is that.

wouldn’t it be nice if everything in life was that simple.

i need a job.  “Here’s a job.”

i need money. “Here’s money.”

i need a boyfriend. “Here’s a boyfriend.”

i’m sorry. “You’re forgiven.”